CALIFORNIAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I keep torturing myself by looking at pictures of people, friends, & family that still live in California ... and/or pictures of myself when I LIVED in california and I really miss (this is going to sound REALLY superficial but I don't care because it's relevant to my happiness and therefore my quality of life!) being tan and skinny! Not that I'm not skinny now, but I used to go to the gym far more often (24hour fitness only cost me $31/month versus Equinox's $150/month!) without breaking my bank ... which is another reason why I canceled my Equinox membership, it's totally UNAFFORDABLE! I was in shape and I was tan and I looked really good! Even one of my co-workers commented on that! She walks by my desk at work and sees my Facebook profile picture and is like "whoa! Is that YOU?! You look so different!" Argh! I KNOW THAT! Ever since I moved to the East Coast ... i've been consistently colorless and white as a ghost and without a gym membership or even when I had one, I had a very busy schedule (which prevented me from getting to the gym) I'm soft as clay! It's disgusting! I miss being tan and fit! It's soooooo superficial but it's sooooo true and I can't help but admit it! I feel like a white blob now ... actually I should be grateful that i'm not FAT. The GOOD LORD promised that whatever I asked would come to pass in his precious name and believe you me ... I asked to have an excellent working metabolism that would keep me skinny or exactly the way I currently am no matter what happened and to date all of that has happened so I'm going to stop speaking horrible things, that I DON'T WANT TO HAPPEN TO ME, into existence. Ok ... I just had to vent ... back to work for me ... hehehehehehehehehehehehe *^_^*
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